creep by radiohead, fav song of the day

When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh

She's running out again
She's running out
She run run run run...
run... run...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't belong here...

Genie does sleep through classes

Yes, I did....I overslept first period this morning....
It should not be a big deal since it's just a mark on my attendance.
However, the reason that caused my lateness was actually a really screwed up dream....

I thought the dream itself was a good one but not so good when I woke up...

I dreamt about Mr. M again....
We were in a KTV or something and he was singing.... the worst part was that he held my hand...
I realized that I was dreaming suddenly, woke up, 8:07 A.M.
I was actually holding my cell phone...............= =
very fucked up
My astronomy teacher wasn't too pleased about that cos we had a test review...

sigh

I need to stop sleeping through my classes and stop dreaming about him...
i thought I had forgotten about him:(
I thought....

looking forward

It's a really mixed feeling I will say. I want to go to college but I don't want to...
I am eager to meet new friends and take cool classes but I dont know if I will be able to handle the work:(
Well, I prob can but I am still kinda scared.

I guess all I can do now is study hard?!

uhh Study again, I could never get enough of it.

btw, I had a dream about grandpa last night. He called and wanted to talk to grandma...
Maybe he actually did call and wanted me to deliver his message? Should I tell my mom about this?

hmm...

ok then
g2study

liberal arts school

I went to Franklin and Marshall's info session and surprisingly F and M is one of my top choices too! Ha..I kind of hope I won't get into CMU comp. sci. ED....
Anyways....
my preference goes like this now:
Wellesley=> Franklin and Marshall=>CMU=> Penn...
If Wellesley is a coed school, I would def. apply there:(
I dont think I should go to any single sex school...

Gosh, so much work to do...better start studying

i am not studying again

social networking sites are destroying human race...

emotional

I guess we all have to move on someday.
It's just a matter of time? When will my time come?
Angela is so in love with his new boy from the mixer... (anyways, it's irrelevant)

fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
and i am emotional eating again....
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck

i m sorry about all that f bombs
but i need a place to say that

Somehow, I feel that I don't know him anymore
Who is he?
Are we even acquainted?
If not for the photographs we took together and the facebook comments that we used to leave on each other's wall...
I would have doubted that he had ever existed.

start studying

I need to start studying!
AP stat test. AP Physics intense problem set. Astronomy test. Life is great!
Woohoo I am currently attending a spectacular school ..def. well prepared for college!