uhhh....

so i am taking SAT2 math tmr.if i am not getting a 800, i will go die=(
i am done complaining...
sleeping time!

life

is to short to be wasting time with someone that you are not completely into.

But at the mean time, it's really hard to find someone that you are INTO completely.

ee cummings

i carry your heart with me
(i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it(anywhere i go you go,my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)
i want no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

My thoughts on Nihilism

Although I considered myself to be a Nietzsche follower, I do not believe in nihilism. I do not oppose to it in the way it cause apathy in human race. I oppose to it because I truly believe that whatever established was established for a reason. It's impossible for the human race, or other kind of organism to solely evolve from atoms. Darwin's theory is so wrong. I think whatever established was established for the entire universe to continue evolving for a further reason.

for Sarah Lee...according to dictionary.com

ni⋅hil⋅ism :
–noun
1. total rejection of established laws and institutions.
2. anarchy, terrorism, or other revolutionary activity.
3. total and absolute destructiveness, esp. toward the world at large and including oneself: the power-mad nihilism that marked Hitler's last years.
4. Philosophy. a. an extreme form of skepticism: the denial of all real existence or the possibility of an objective basis for truth.
b. nothingness or nonexistence.

5. (sometimes initial capital letter) the principles of a Russian revolutionary group, active in the latter half of the 19th century, holding that existing social and political institutions must be destroyed in order to clear the way for a new state of society and employing extreme measures, including terrorism and assassination.
6. annihilation of the self, or the individual consciousness, esp. as an aspect of mystical experience.

albert camus

he's so cool....

Philly

FYI
i am spending my thanksgiving vacation in Philly=)

dreams

1. Invent a time machine
2. Participate in the project of moving to another planet
3. Find E.T.
4. Communicate with E.T.


I don’t really know why I am listing all these unachievable dream... apparently I read too much sci-fi or I "Lily Allen" too much…

Lily Allen's music always carried me away… I have been thinking what if a succeeded to participate in a project of moving to another planet…and the earth is coming to an end but I could only bring one person with me to another planet. Who would I bring then? Hmm….scary questions, huh? Who would you bring?

mattress surfing party- epic

=(weird

Dear diary,
I have two things to tell you. I think i am sick...I hope it's not H1N1. I don't have time for sickness! Sickness away! Come when i am old! not now!

The other thing is the dream that i had...I had a weird dream last night. I dreamed about going up to the bathroom and there was a forbidden bathroom ( sort of like " the forbidden forest" except it was the " forbedden bathroom") A boy told me that if i went in there, i would be cursed. I did not believe him so i went in anyway because my nature was calling out loud. I glimpsed at the sign, " REDEEM YOURSELF BY SELLING YOURSELF." " What was that...?" I ignored the sig, went in and finished peeing, i came out. Nothing happened. I laughed and belittled the entire concept of supernatural. However, as i was laughing. Water came out from my head, my ears, my nostrils,...and it felt absolutely weird to have all the water keep coming out from my body. If you want to know what the feeling was, well..., i would say i felt i was a toilet. As soon as all the flooding ended, I came out of the bathroom and went to English class as usual. Suddenly, my body start buring...I saw myself going into hell and was surrounded by devils. The weird thing was that i was the only person in the room to see all the images of hell. What should I do? Was it that i disrespect the supernatural and look down to the people who were very religious? The uncomfortable feeling did not stop but instead the feeling became even more intense. I excused myself to the bathroom. Tear down the sign. The otherside of the paper wrote, " The Recipe to Redemption." To buy back yourself is to give away dearest. "

I pondered. What is my dearest?

that wasn't what i was looking for

that was all i could say

first microscopic photography!

Dear diary,

They are my first microscopic photography! New York State museum was a lot of fun today=) The moths look like some kind extra terrestrial life...haha they remind me of the movie war of the worlds by Tom Cruise. Internet is gonna cut off so...i will tell you more tmr, if i have a chance.

first post

dear diary,
I am writing to you because i want to leave something for myself.
I am writing to you becuase i want to keep a record of the most fleeting moment.
I am writing to you because i want to prove this equation," the meaning of life=42"