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Dear diary,
I have two things to tell you. I think i am sick...I hope it's not H1N1. I don't have time for sickness! Sickness away! Come when i am old! not now!

The other thing is the dream that i had...I had a weird dream last night. I dreamed about going up to the bathroom and there was a forbidden bathroom ( sort of like " the forbidden forest" except it was the " forbedden bathroom") A boy told me that if i went in there, i would be cursed. I did not believe him so i went in anyway because my nature was calling out loud. I glimpsed at the sign, " REDEEM YOURSELF BY SELLING YOURSELF." " What was that...?" I ignored the sig, went in and finished peeing, i came out. Nothing happened. I laughed and belittled the entire concept of supernatural. However, as i was laughing. Water came out from my head, my ears, my nostrils,...and it felt absolutely weird to have all the water keep coming out from my body. If you want to know what the feeling was, well..., i would say i felt i was a toilet. As soon as all the flooding ended, I came out of the bathroom and went to English class as usual. Suddenly, my body start buring...I saw myself going into hell and was surrounded by devils. The weird thing was that i was the only person in the room to see all the images of hell. What should I do? Was it that i disrespect the supernatural and look down to the people who were very religious? The uncomfortable feeling did not stop but instead the feeling became even more intense. I excused myself to the bathroom. Tear down the sign. The otherside of the paper wrote, " The Recipe to Redemption." To buy back yourself is to give away dearest. "

I pondered. What is my dearest?